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11 September 2016 @ 09:07 am
17 February 2016 @ 03:01 pm
to watch a team of 50 of us react to the Zika issue, build algorithms, define methods, change requests, push design and release iterations, QA, and show off the result proudly to the weekly conference call with world class professors. ESPECIALLY when the DBA forgot to tell the pipeline manager to connect all that shit up to the DB, so the results never ever got pushed up to actually see. See our new resource! Oh, it has nothing in it. Thats nice. We haven't done anything for two weeks. We'll fix the heads talking to the feet, don't worry. BETA. Yes. This was a beta release.
28 November 2015 @ 09:52 am
is something I should get used to. This is nice. Making some great headway lately with family, freinds, self, home, mind, body, and spirit. Wish I had kept myself up completely, through grad school, but here we are. Today I shall be grateful once again for all we have and have worked for. Thanks.
18 June 2015 @ 08:05 am
isnt about me. the next big thing won't be self absorbed. it's not money, or power, or solely discovery. it feels as though it will be inclusive, whole, and outward pointing, to the way things are, the way people and the environment exist together. it will oppose entropy and failure, will be a guiding light of reason and zen, or positive and productive, of balance and beauty.

the only issue is that the pretty muse that is telling me what this move is, is speaking quietly enough that she is difficult to hear and comprehend.

speak up muse, i can see you are trying to tell me something...
30 May 2015 @ 12:40 pm
Including mine. Sometimes people's bias is in direct response to a bias they think someone else has. Like, it wouldnt exist except for others. Its as if the only option is to take the polar opposite message, even if you're only half bought in on that edge. Strange. I am rethinking the bias, and part of the problem is the bias I think other people have. Wish everyone could assist on this, but its starting to look like the way to correct problems isnt to shout out at them, its to take the rational median position, and be sane. Otherwsie its just an argument.

Dunno. Still thinking and feeling. Tired of arguing positions though.
08 March 2015 @ 08:07 am
is incredible to me this morning that i am deleting my history on *another* machine logged into chrome. thats right, my browsing history being viewed on a mac, from a win8 pc, and v.v. is available. you can also see what pages my mobile devices have accessed. its all cloud. its all shared at the top level.

and couple this with the fact that i come home from work, having looked at facebook in the morning, closed the window, and at the end of the day of work searched for sleds at home depot during the last snowstorm....and now opening FB on a difft machine see the exact *same product* ad in the ad window. they are pushing it at my account no matter where i am. fine. but.

this means that fb is tracking my history even *after* i close the fb window. also, it is sending it to an ad agency, which then associates my browser history with my ID, no matter where i am.

i find this infuriating. it implies i shouldnt use chrome on two different machines, or that i should use linux/opera, or disable all cookies, or never access FB again, or delete FB cookies after each session. hard to do this without looking like a paranoid fool, but its not good for a company to track my online behavior even after i have closed their window. thats not right.

perhaps going back to win7 would help a touch. i hate win8 anyway and wish metro panes would die a painful death. where's my file browser and search? i do not want to search the web, its not the same. i want my gd files. stop clouding me.
25 October 2014 @ 02:47 am
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11 September 2014 @ 07:53 am
31 August 2014 @ 10:48 am
this place is really turning out to be amazing. but its not like having friends and family around. i don't travel any longer, just stay home and work and take care of kids. hopefully thats going to change. its been 'exceptions' for years, but now i realize that her anxiety is the normal state. this will take more effort to alter. i may simply have to take the kids to see people.

said bye to brother today as he rode off on the giant bike, a 6 cylinder amazingly. miss him already. these kids are awesome and so is the house but people keep me together.
26 September 2013 @ 05:43 pm
need to find a way to keep people from stealing my psychic energy. really. if every interaction leaves me feeling drained and used, i need to change either myself or my situation. trusting others is obviously not going to work. sigh.